May102011

Taking a moment to breathe. Food guilt.

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For the past 5 and some odd years I became a non-priority, always putting my family’s needs before my own.

As I sit and write this sentence, I realize how wrong of me it was to do that.

What made me finally realize it?

I own one pair of pants that fit.

Pathetic isn’t it?

And right now, they’re in the washer.

So at 12:50, I’m still in my pajamas. …Continue Reading…

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Mar92011

I tried something new. And was so glad that I did.

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Thank you to P&G’s Have You Tried This Yet? program and Kroger for sponsoring my writing about trying new things and breaking out of my everyday routine. Click here to find great savings on high-performing P&G products at a Kroger store near you. I was selected for this sponsorship by the Clever Girls Collective, which endorses Blog With Integrity, as I do.

My everyday routine is pretty much the same.

Get up.

Get dressed.

Take child to school.

Avoid eye contact with other parents. …Continue Reading…

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Jan272011

Something I’ve learned today.

Something I’ve learned today from Blissdom?

Delete the negative.

This is my space and you don’t get to be here.

Thank you Brene Brown.

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Jan192011

I’m not a bad person, I’m just infertile.

I’m constantly asked when J and I are going to have another baby. And by constant, I mean that it happens more than 5 times a week. Mostly at church or my daughter’s school.

I always lie about why we haven’t had another. I tell everyone “Have you met M?”. “She’s a handful herself”. “We just don’t have time or the money to have another right now”.”I just can’t handle more than one”.

I tell this to friends.

I tell this to strangers.

I’ve told this to J’s family members. …Continue Reading…

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Dec302010

A year in review

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This year, was probably one of my toughest yet rewarding years of my life. It’s a relief to see it behind me, but I am actually thankful I’ve experienced so much.

At the beginning of this year, I took over the family finances to ease the burden on my husband. It made it easier for just me to organize and pay the bills. It was a very rewarding growing-up experience. Before this year I’d never balanced a check book or really have to pay my own bills. Someone in my life has always just taken over that responsibility for me, and it was certainly an eye-opener!

January was tough. Because of this, behind the scenes, blogging has also been tough. Because I chose to write about my experience of abuse, I’ve dealt with a lot of harassment, hate filled blogs (that not only attacked me, but also my husband and daughter) and hate-mail on the back side.  It was from those who supported (or are) the people that did these things to me. I pray for their salvation daily, and in the end, I am so glad I have this forum to share my story. So many of you came forward with your own stories of abuse (whether it be physical, mental or both) and it’s nice to know that there are other survivors out there.

In February, I also went to Blissdom, and met some amazing people! I also got closer to some of my “Big Deal Moms” during the experience (a big shout out to my “Meals and Deals” crew!) and it helped …Continue Reading…

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