This year, was probably one of my toughest yet rewarding years of my life. It’s a relief to see it behind me, but I am actually thankful I’ve experienced so much.
At the beginning of this year, I took over the family finances to ease the burden on my husband. It made it easier for just me to organize and pay the bills. It was a very rewarding growing-up experience. Before this year I’d never balanced a check book or really have to pay my own bills. Someone in my life has always just taken over that responsibility for me, and it was certainly an eye-opener!
January was tough. Because of this, behind the scenes, blogging has also been tough. Because I chose to write about my experience of abuse, I’ve dealt with a lot of harassment, hate filled blogs (that not only attacked me, but also my husband and daughter) and hate-mail on the back side. It was from those who supported (or are) the people that did these things to me. I pray for their salvation daily, and in the end, I am so glad I have this forum to share my story. So many of you came forward with your own stories of abuse (whether it be physical, mental or both) and it’s nice to know that there are other survivors out there.
In February, I also went to Blissdom, and met some amazing people! I also got closer to some of my “Big Deal Moms” during the experience (a big shout out to my “Meals and Deals” crew!) and it helped strengthen my faith and my bond with my own family.
This, in my opinion, all prepared me for what I was to face in March. An ex-boyfriend/fiance of mine contacted me. He let me know how I had made him feel (I was a very rotten person to him some 10 years ago) and really ripped into me. I felt terrible about it, but didn’t reply and ignored him. Exactly 7 days later, he took his own life as well as another’s. I felt extreme guilt and sadness. There were a lot of “what ifs” flying around and I went into a deep depression. I came out of the fog with a new look on life in general, and a new found love and trust of those who rallied around me to get through that rough time.
In April, J and I celebrated our 7th wonderful year of marriage! I am so blessed to have him beside me. I finally (after 2 long years of RCIA) joined the Catholic faith. My husband, daughter and I finally have the same religion and it is amazing to share in the joy with them.
In June, I was invited to P&G head quarters in Cincinnati to experience the all-new Tide Actilift, and meet one of my favorite people, Tim Gunn. This was simply AMAZING. For one, seeing the laundry labs of P&G was an experience within itself, but to meet someone you’ve always admired is a whole-nother-level! Plus Tim and I had some fun calling J at home several times that night, which he got a kick out of!
The summer flew by, and M completed her first year of preschool. She loved it, and I loved finally having her all to myself over the summer break.
September rolled around, and M turned 5!! and we made our yearly pilgrimage to Disney World. I still haven’t written about the trip (I know, horrible!) but honestly haven’t felt like blogging in a long time. Life has gotten so busy, and I just have a hard time- well, finding the time! I also let my 10th anniversary of being deaf fly right on by. I guess it helps when you’re in the happiest place on Earth!
On a happier note, October came and I got to celebrate my one-year anniversary of C Diff remission! This was HUGE! I’ve gained all the weight back (and then some) from the disease and currently show no signs of it coming back. I still have some lasting issues with the damage done to my colon, but am completely off all medication to treat it. I thank the Lord everyday for getting me through this, when even the doctors thought I wouldn’t survive. This was also a very busy month for us, as M began drum lessons and J began guitar lessons! The both have ambitions to become a band, and asked me to play the tambourine. I turned them down, because they’d need a manager more! At the end of the month, J lost the matriarch of his family. We miss Big Grandma so much, but are glad that she’s at home with the Lord.
November went by in a FLASH and I ended up in the hospital during the latter part. I lost all sight and feeling in my arms. I was admitted into the Neuro unit with what they thought was a stroke. It turned out to be an aura migraine brought on by my pesky wisdom teeth and an infection. Again, I consider myself extremely blessed because it could have been much worse.
I was still in the hospital when December introduced itself. And therefor missed the DisneySMMoms registration. I can only hope and pray that this was just not meant to be for me, because I was very disappointed to miss out on the fun. The rest of the month has been filled with visiting friends, music lessons, ballet lessons (lots of dentist visits) and non-stop Christmas cheer. I attended my first Christmas Mass at Emmanuel Catholic Church downtown, and it was breathtaking.
So that was my year-in-review. I hope and pray that 2011 is good to you and your loved ones.
I would love to hear your year in review. If you’ve written one, be sure to link it below!